Wednesday, April 29, 2015

When you think everything is going as planned

So nothing in my life has gone as I planned when I was growing up but thats normal right?  I was going to go to college, graduate, and maybe settle down, get married, and have children.

Boy was I wrong.

Really wrong.

Like, "Are you a complete dumbass?" wrong.

My freshman year of college was a flop, my roommate was a drug addict and I almost was thrown up against the wall of our shared room when she wasn't high.  I eventually moved home with my parents and tried to get through what I could.

I chose the wrong major and changed it which also changed my course of my college education.

I married the first guy who paid attention to my chubby nerdy self.

Well this post just is dreadful...

Why should I continue on?

It is sad and pathetic!  I want to be a guest blogger and I am writing a post like this?

Screw that!  No one needs to read about depressing silly nonsense!

But...maybe...no..I know..that I'm not the only one who has gone through something like this.

We live, we learn, we try and change our ways, our lives, our behavior.  We stop judging one another and start loving one another.

We learn that the past makes us who we are today.  My third baby was a surprise.  I was done after my 2, got rid of my first husband, moved on, and never thought I'd marry again.  He isn't perfect but he made me a better person than who I used to be.

What I want to say is this: Not everyone does what they plan on doing in the future.  My days of fantasizing about being spontaneous, doing whatever I wanted, going where ever I wanted is replaced by taking care of 3 children and a husband that does anything to make me happy.  My life isn't perfect, it is definitely not what I thought it would be and I'm okay with that.

I'd like to meet someone who has their life exactly as planned from day one.  We should have coffee together.

2 comments:

  1. '... now, there's real life. I like how courageous you are to admit and face everything. We're in the same line. I can see regrets in my family and friend's faces when they look at me, or when we talk about me (often, what should have been). But heck, I chose what I chose and stand by them even if those were not the choice other people would have made. What's important is that you are happy. Everyone's happy and we're not hurting anyone, right. Will surely read your blog in the future. :)

    Thing here, I guess, we can't have coffee together... LOL!

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  2. I have to apologize for not responding back to you from over 2 years ago but I thank you for coming by and commenting! I hope you come back and read more!

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